The mind is a wild thing.
The first paragraph of the Yoga Sutras says: “Yoga is the settling of the mind into silence. When the mind has settled, we are established in our essential nature, which is unbounded consciousness. Our essential nature is usually overshadowed by the activity of the mind.” (translation by Alistair Shearer)
I was not drawn to yoga as a physical exercise. I was drawn to yoga after reading philosophies that referred to yoga as a tool for meditation, to gain clarity, peace, wisdom, awareness and enlightenment.
Yoga connected me to ME and has become a deeply rooted practice of awareness.
I am aware of the waves of my mind, and how easily I am moved into tangents of change. In the past I have been eager to go with the flow of these waves, and be washed away to new shores and adventures. It was a gift to be able to go with the flow, to be unattached and free.
Today I am challenging this gift, and choosing to stay grounded and OBSERVE my thoughts and feelings before taking any action. Today I feel challenged by my thoughts, that lead to feelings, that lead to actions that may not be wise choices. I am choosing to wait, to breathe, to allow my dreams to transform in a way that is true to my soul as well as safe for myself and my son.
No more risk taking, no more acting on impulse, no more detachment from worldly possessions.
WHEN TOO MANY WORLDS COLLIDE
Truly I believe we all have a place and a purpose. Lessons we can learn from, or suffer from, and use to help ourselves and others evolve. Life is full of challenges, full of hurt and pain and a whole whack of nasty stuff that can hold us back, torment us and destroy us. It transforms us for better or worse.
At some point we get to choose. At some point, as we grow up and mature, we start to question life. At some point, we have an opportunity to take control of ourselves. We will never really have control over anything but our own thoughts, emotions and life. We may influence the world around us, but we cannot change others who are unwilling to make that choice for themselves. When we make that choice, that is the true path of yoga. You become the warrior of your own soul.
I am a sensitive soul that is easily overwhelmed by the world around me. It is hard for me to disconnect at times from the flow of oneness I experience with the energies at work in the universe.
I believe we all experience this on some level. We are all connected, whether we feel it or not. We all become who we are because of the influence of our parents, our families, our friends, our cultures and our societies. Who would you be otherwise? When you strip away the lies you have grown to believe, who are you?
I don’t care if you ever step foot on a yoga mat, or advance beyond learning to breathe properly, you are on a path of yoga every day through the thoughts in your mind and actions you take as a result. We are on this path together whether you know it or not.
Today I have had many worlds collide. I am asking myself, who am I? What do I want? When I strip back all these layers of outside influence…
I am free. My mind briefly settles into that silent peace.
And then it asks “So what’s next?”